learning to let go

probably the hardest thing I shall ever have to do. Letting go. of feeling, of control, of pain, of love. relinquishing control to the universe, while I focus inwardly and remember to take a deep, calculated breath, followed by another cleansing one. one step in front of the other. Calming a mind racing... I don't think I have ever understood what it meant to give up control and how liberating it can be. I am trying. It is a process. but a path I have now chosen. a path to life. to serenity.